ya know what I hate?
I hate it when people label themselves: I'm republican, I'm democrat.
Well I, Amanda Mae, am whatever I feel is right at the time.
Some people say this, but they are hypocrite.
During the previous election I sat with a pen and paper and watched every single debate. Not the news shows which are always bias one way or they other. I watched the debates, and took notes. I voted for who I thought would run the country best, and would take it to the place I want it to go. With the current issue at hand, I believe health insurance should be a given right as an american, end of story.
So don't start talking politics with me, and not expect me to say something.
I, for the most part, tried to refuse to talk politics because this always happen. It's stupid. It just leads to fighting and no one is ever going to change there ways.
I have my beliefs from the debates I hear, and from articles I read like this
Articles that state both the pros and cons so that I can make my own judgement.
I hate it when people go one way.
I hated it when people who "are democrat" hated Bush, sent around all these nasty emails and bumper stickers making fun of him. I hate it when they label republicans as close minded, arrogant, riches.
I hate it when people "are republican" and hate "those damn democrats", and only watch Fox News and the O'Rielly Factor, and only listen to Rush Limbaugh on the radio, when they send around hate emails, and put bumper stickers up about Obama and how America is going to hell.
NEWSFLASH: WE ARE ALL AMERICAN. IT DOESN'T MATTER IF YOU AGREE WITH HIM OR NOT HE IS STILL YOUR PRESIDENT AND SHOULD BE TREATED WITH SOME AMOUNT OF BASIC RESPECT! IF YOU'RE SO GREAT THEN WHY DON'T YOU RUN THE COUNTRY!
I try to make myself as well-rounded asmuch as possible.
Why can't everyone else?
Ps: Found this article today.... thinks it's pretty cool.
Monday, March 22, 2010
Sunday, March 21, 2010
White-trash stole my solo!
So last night, I had two things going on at once: I had to sing the national anthem for a Green Bay Deacons hockey game, and I had to work.
First things first, a few weeks ago I was contacted to sing the national anthem for a Green Bay Deacons hockey game. They had gotten my name from the Green Bay Gamblers who I normally sing for. I asked off, and it was not given to me.
I stopped in the day before to find someone to cover for me, but alas, I failed.
So at work last night I told my boss I would have to leave at 7, so I could be there at 7:15 and sing at 7:30, I also told him I would be back around 7:45 or as soon as I could get back. He was upset about this, and told me I had to think about if this was really the part time job for me. I said that singing is what I do, and recently my name has been thrown around green bay. I am getting calls from the Bullfrogs, Deacons, and Gamblers. I assured him this wouldn't happen again.
So at 7 I leave to go to the DePere Ice Arena, a wee bit flustered from the converstaion with my boss. I get there and the lady that was helping was like "Oh! Ok, I will walk you down there when it's time" So we walk down to the place where the microphone is, and I meet the guys who are doing the technical stuff, and he asks me for my name so he can annouce it in like 5 minutes when they start.
All of a sudden this woman, dressed in Harley Davidson, holding a beer (we'll call her White-trash), comes up and goes "Ok I'm ready to sing"
Lady next to me: "Oh, you don't have to they brought in someone to tonight"
White-trash: "WHAT? It's my husbands last game! He's been playing for 15 years and it's his last game and my kids are here, I NEED to sing. Who are you?"
Me: "I was contacted a few weeks ago, they came to me and asked me to sing tonight, I usually sing for the gamblers"
White-trash: "Well honey you can sing for every game next year but I need to sing for this one, its my husbands last game and I have family here"
Me: "I have family here too, and I got in trouble at work to be here." *in my head I'm thinking, I could outsing you anyday*
White-trash: *who is now talking to the players* "Where is Carl? I need to talk to him, this girl thinks she is singing and now she's getting all pissed"
(this whole time no one has stepped in to say that I was scheduled to sing)
Me: "Whatever" and I left.
I was so pissed, I have never been treated that bad. You ask to come sing for you then you don't even stand up for me when some white-trash, drunk, pitchless bitch comes to take it away????
I got back to work and my boss could see I was upset, so he felt kinda bad and sympathized.
I've never been so disrespected or humiliated in my life.
Green Bay Deacons: don't expect me to answer your calls, don't expect me to ever come to a game either.
First things first, a few weeks ago I was contacted to sing the national anthem for a Green Bay Deacons hockey game. They had gotten my name from the Green Bay Gamblers who I normally sing for. I asked off, and it was not given to me.
I stopped in the day before to find someone to cover for me, but alas, I failed.
So at work last night I told my boss I would have to leave at 7, so I could be there at 7:15 and sing at 7:30, I also told him I would be back around 7:45 or as soon as I could get back. He was upset about this, and told me I had to think about if this was really the part time job for me. I said that singing is what I do, and recently my name has been thrown around green bay. I am getting calls from the Bullfrogs, Deacons, and Gamblers. I assured him this wouldn't happen again.
So at 7 I leave to go to the DePere Ice Arena, a wee bit flustered from the converstaion with my boss. I get there and the lady that was helping was like "Oh! Ok, I will walk you down there when it's time" So we walk down to the place where the microphone is, and I meet the guys who are doing the technical stuff, and he asks me for my name so he can annouce it in like 5 minutes when they start.
All of a sudden this woman, dressed in Harley Davidson, holding a beer (we'll call her White-trash), comes up and goes "Ok I'm ready to sing"
Lady next to me: "Oh, you don't have to they brought in someone to tonight"
White-trash: "WHAT? It's my husbands last game! He's been playing for 15 years and it's his last game and my kids are here, I NEED to sing. Who are you?"
Me: "I was contacted a few weeks ago, they came to me and asked me to sing tonight, I usually sing for the gamblers"
White-trash: "Well honey you can sing for every game next year but I need to sing for this one, its my husbands last game and I have family here"
Me: "I have family here too, and I got in trouble at work to be here." *in my head I'm thinking, I could outsing you anyday*
White-trash: *who is now talking to the players* "Where is Carl? I need to talk to him, this girl thinks she is singing and now she's getting all pissed"
(this whole time no one has stepped in to say that I was scheduled to sing)
Me: "Whatever" and I left.
I was so pissed, I have never been treated that bad. You ask to come sing for you then you don't even stand up for me when some white-trash, drunk, pitchless bitch comes to take it away????
I got back to work and my boss could see I was upset, so he felt kinda bad and sympathized.
I've never been so disrespected or humiliated in my life.
Green Bay Deacons: don't expect me to answer your calls, don't expect me to ever come to a game either.
Friday, March 19, 2010
Jobs, class, chi visit, life in general
It's been a super long time since I've written anything, but i didn't really know what to write.
I am in Green Bay right now and am actually quite content with my life at this point. I am on my final day of spring break, and am kinda disappointed with the lack of things I actually got done. O well.
To sum up this year so far, on new years day charlie accidentally hit me in the eye with a nerf gun, it immediately bled over and I had to go to the ER. I spent 2 weeks on bedrest, and 2 months on 3 different drops 4 times a day. Charlie felt terrible and was there waiting on me hand and foot till he had to go back to school. One of the drops was a steriod which lowered my immune system. I got a bad sinus infection that lasted a month untill I was done with my drops.
BUT on March 1st I was offically BACK TO NORMAL. I feel like I can finally begin my 2010.
Yesterday I got to see Sarah and Biv for the first time in over a year! So much as changed with all of us. Biv has a boyfriend, and both of them are the cutest ginger couple ever, I'm so happy for her! Tippy is engaged to get married to Chelsea! I'm so happy for them, they seem to get a long amazingly. Their personalities just click.
I went into roosevelt. I went up to the 9th floor and just looked around, everyone was on break so no one was there. I went to the lounge and just sat for a moment. I walked past Frazes door to what used to be Mrs. Norman's door. idk if it still is hers or not cause it just said "Studio" on the side, but I put my hand up to it, and just leaned my head against it. I miss it so much it kills me. I left a little postit note on the music ed board by frazes office, it's just a small little thing to know I was there.
On a random note, It had been the first time I had seen Biv and Tippy since I broke up with Jamie, so I finally got to explain to them both what really happened. And I can't believe after all this time it still bothers me, it bugs me how I handled the whole thing. And it bugs me to know that he has said some nasty things about me, but part of me understands why. I handled it horribly. I should've been more honest with him when I started to have doubts months before I broke up with him. Yesterday I was worried that when I was in chicago we were going to run into him. Part of me wishes we would've, just because then I could've said "I'm sorry" to his face. Maybe he could've seen in my eyes that I mean it.
I can't change the past, I can only learn from it. I really firmly believe there are two other people better made for us, and I hope he finds that person and is happy. I wish I would've been more honest with him, and I wish I could tell him that after I broke up with him I started having feelings for charlie. I know even if I did he wouldn't believe me, but it's the truth.
So I'm letting go.
I've apologized so many times, I just can't feel bad anymore.
I'm so happy right now and I think I've found someone who really fits me, my faith, my family, my life.
I'm in a long distance relationship, and sure we disagree on somethings, but the fundamentals are there. And we may be obnoxious when we are together, but it's cause the absence makes the heart grow fonder. We don't bicker, we don't fight.
We love.
We talked last night about a timeline, and honestly I don't really want to have one, whenever we feel like getting married we will. It's not a race.
I look at my parents, and I don't want to go through a divorce because of them. My mom is starting to date again and I am all mixed up about it. Good for her, but i don't want him to think he'll ever be my dad. And I don't want him to think that when I have kids someday that he'll be their grandpa. That's just not how it works. My Dad, whose been laid off since the beginning of the year, finally god a job! He is head matience guy for all 12 of the pioneer credit union locations! Comes with insurance, salary, all that stuff. He starts monday!
Charlie got a job in Wisconsin Dells this summer, and will be working 70 hour weeks. I'm very happy and proud of him, I wanted him to stay in WI and he got it! But it's going to be very hard to find time to keep this relationship going. I just have to hang on to the hope that maybe a few years from now we won't need to live hours apart. And we won't have to call each other to talk to each other, or skype to see each others faces.
For Valentines Day he didn't get me anything extravagant, but it was perfect all the same. he got me a frame. It says "Charlie & Amanda" with a picture of us at the Packer/Seahawks game we went to this past season. In the corner is this quote "Even though you are one day further from the last time you saw me, you are one day closer to the next time you will"
It's perfect cause when I miss him, I read it and know it'll be ok.
Classes are going good, not failing anything which is good. I have a lot more solo opportunity here. I had the soprano solo in the big christmas concert this past december, and I got the lead in the Opera as well this semester. I'm really excited about it because for the first time since high school I get to act and sing and dance!!! :-D
I signed up for 2 summer classes and am hoping for a job in the bookstore this summer. It'd be nice to work on campass and now waste so much gas. Plus I'll be able to meet more people, and just be more involved in general.
I'm frustrated with my job at BB&B right now. When I asked to cut down hours they gave me shit for it. I only asked for 8 - 10 hours a week, they give me 10 - 12. I can't switch with anyone very well cause they have to be bridal consultants. I get paid minimum wage, didn't even get a raise when I was bridal certified. It's sucks cause I like the actual job (working with people) but the pay and the gas to get there just doesn't make it worth while.
I got a real job this semester, I am a show choir director at Aldo Leopold Middle School. It's not quite what I expected. We had a competition a few weeks ago and we did good! They got good feedback (she got picky which means all the fundamentals were there). They had fun. But now they are getting frustrated. They want to do good, but don't want to do the work to get there. I am constantly hearing "I don't wanna" or "I can't do it". It's hard to find the line between something to easy and they get bored, or something to hard they just give up on. I try to keep them motivated, but it's hard when 4/5 of the kids are either ADHD or OCD, and then 3/5 had family issues at home. They fight, not quite as bad as before but it still happens. They get emotional as middle school girls do, and they tend to blow up. We have off this week cause of spring break which is good, I need a week to get my thoughts together and figure out a way to motivate them again.
So yea, overall I am doing pretty good. Happy with school, boy, and most of the time my jobs. Hoping everything will work out this summer.
I promise I'll keep you more updated this time. :-)
I am in Green Bay right now and am actually quite content with my life at this point. I am on my final day of spring break, and am kinda disappointed with the lack of things I actually got done. O well.
To sum up this year so far, on new years day charlie accidentally hit me in the eye with a nerf gun, it immediately bled over and I had to go to the ER. I spent 2 weeks on bedrest, and 2 months on 3 different drops 4 times a day. Charlie felt terrible and was there waiting on me hand and foot till he had to go back to school. One of the drops was a steriod which lowered my immune system. I got a bad sinus infection that lasted a month untill I was done with my drops.
BUT on March 1st I was offically BACK TO NORMAL. I feel like I can finally begin my 2010.
Yesterday I got to see Sarah and Biv for the first time in over a year! So much as changed with all of us. Biv has a boyfriend, and both of them are the cutest ginger couple ever, I'm so happy for her! Tippy is engaged to get married to Chelsea! I'm so happy for them, they seem to get a long amazingly. Their personalities just click.
I went into roosevelt. I went up to the 9th floor and just looked around, everyone was on break so no one was there. I went to the lounge and just sat for a moment. I walked past Frazes door to what used to be Mrs. Norman's door. idk if it still is hers or not cause it just said "Studio" on the side, but I put my hand up to it, and just leaned my head against it. I miss it so much it kills me. I left a little postit note on the music ed board by frazes office, it's just a small little thing to know I was there.
On a random note, It had been the first time I had seen Biv and Tippy since I broke up with Jamie, so I finally got to explain to them both what really happened. And I can't believe after all this time it still bothers me, it bugs me how I handled the whole thing. And it bugs me to know that he has said some nasty things about me, but part of me understands why. I handled it horribly. I should've been more honest with him when I started to have doubts months before I broke up with him. Yesterday I was worried that when I was in chicago we were going to run into him. Part of me wishes we would've, just because then I could've said "I'm sorry" to his face. Maybe he could've seen in my eyes that I mean it.
I can't change the past, I can only learn from it. I really firmly believe there are two other people better made for us, and I hope he finds that person and is happy. I wish I would've been more honest with him, and I wish I could tell him that after I broke up with him I started having feelings for charlie. I know even if I did he wouldn't believe me, but it's the truth.
So I'm letting go.
I've apologized so many times, I just can't feel bad anymore.
I'm so happy right now and I think I've found someone who really fits me, my faith, my family, my life.
I'm in a long distance relationship, and sure we disagree on somethings, but the fundamentals are there. And we may be obnoxious when we are together, but it's cause the absence makes the heart grow fonder. We don't bicker, we don't fight.
We love.
We talked last night about a timeline, and honestly I don't really want to have one, whenever we feel like getting married we will. It's not a race.
I look at my parents, and I don't want to go through a divorce because of them. My mom is starting to date again and I am all mixed up about it. Good for her, but i don't want him to think he'll ever be my dad. And I don't want him to think that when I have kids someday that he'll be their grandpa. That's just not how it works. My Dad, whose been laid off since the beginning of the year, finally god a job! He is head matience guy for all 12 of the pioneer credit union locations! Comes with insurance, salary, all that stuff. He starts monday!
Charlie got a job in Wisconsin Dells this summer, and will be working 70 hour weeks. I'm very happy and proud of him, I wanted him to stay in WI and he got it! But it's going to be very hard to find time to keep this relationship going. I just have to hang on to the hope that maybe a few years from now we won't need to live hours apart. And we won't have to call each other to talk to each other, or skype to see each others faces.
For Valentines Day he didn't get me anything extravagant, but it was perfect all the same. he got me a frame. It says "Charlie & Amanda" with a picture of us at the Packer/Seahawks game we went to this past season. In the corner is this quote "Even though you are one day further from the last time you saw me, you are one day closer to the next time you will"
It's perfect cause when I miss him, I read it and know it'll be ok.
Classes are going good, not failing anything which is good. I have a lot more solo opportunity here. I had the soprano solo in the big christmas concert this past december, and I got the lead in the Opera as well this semester. I'm really excited about it because for the first time since high school I get to act and sing and dance!!! :-D
I signed up for 2 summer classes and am hoping for a job in the bookstore this summer. It'd be nice to work on campass and now waste so much gas. Plus I'll be able to meet more people, and just be more involved in general.
I'm frustrated with my job at BB&B right now. When I asked to cut down hours they gave me shit for it. I only asked for 8 - 10 hours a week, they give me 10 - 12. I can't switch with anyone very well cause they have to be bridal consultants. I get paid minimum wage, didn't even get a raise when I was bridal certified. It's sucks cause I like the actual job (working with people) but the pay and the gas to get there just doesn't make it worth while.
I got a real job this semester, I am a show choir director at Aldo Leopold Middle School. It's not quite what I expected. We had a competition a few weeks ago and we did good! They got good feedback (she got picky which means all the fundamentals were there). They had fun. But now they are getting frustrated. They want to do good, but don't want to do the work to get there. I am constantly hearing "I don't wanna" or "I can't do it". It's hard to find the line between something to easy and they get bored, or something to hard they just give up on. I try to keep them motivated, but it's hard when 4/5 of the kids are either ADHD or OCD, and then 3/5 had family issues at home. They fight, not quite as bad as before but it still happens. They get emotional as middle school girls do, and they tend to blow up. We have off this week cause of spring break which is good, I need a week to get my thoughts together and figure out a way to motivate them again.
So yea, overall I am doing pretty good. Happy with school, boy, and most of the time my jobs. Hoping everything will work out this summer.
I promise I'll keep you more updated this time. :-)
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