RA Position

Today I heard back after two weeks of nervousness about the RA position I applied for.  They didn't offer me a position right now, but said that I was well qualified and asked me to be on a reserve list.  So if any of the RA's drop this semester they would bring me on.  They said they simply did not have enough spaces for all the people that qualified.  

Part of me is ok with this, but part of me is not.  I'm happy cause I don't have to leave my room, I love my roommate and I didn't want to leave in the first place.  I'm unhappy cause now I have to work two jobs over break, and deal with my suite mates all yea, and I don't save the money from semester.  

I just really wish I would have gotten it, life would be easier.  What I got wasn't bad, but it's never easy getting silver when you want gold so bad.