I can't believe how old I am getting.
It's really starting to hit me lately because it's started.
That period of life when all you're friends start getting engaged and married, yep it started.
My good friend from Chicago got engaged a few months ago, getting married next summer! (so excited! :-D )
And people I am not really friends with anymore, but still facebook friends with, are getting engaged all over the place!
When I talk to my friends who are in a serious relationship right now, some of them tell me that they plan on getting married in 2 or 3 years...
And the whole marriage thing is constantly on my mind.
Partially because I cannot go on the internet (mainly facebook) without an add for engagement rings, or wedding dresses, or new moms. The other part is because I am a bridal consultant at work. So whenever I work I am working with newly engaged couples, helping them plan and basically helping them put there entire married life together.
When I see some of my girl friends the question is usually asked "So when is the wedding?"... and a few years ago it was a joke, but now it's become semi-serious..
When I am bored I find myself looking at wedding ideas, looking at dresses, or rings, or flowers, or reception places... everything.
And this kinda scares me. It scares me because I will admit deep deep down my heart wants to get married.
In my heart I know that I want to get married because:
1. I am in love with a great guy I can see myself spending the rest of my life with
2. I don't get to see him often and I know if we got married I would get to live with him, our relationship would just blossom
3. The whole concept of living with him and eventually raising kids with him is just so exciting to me, I think we'd make some awesome parents
4. I love to entertain and marriage is the biggest celebration of my life
5. The petty part of me is excited to register, to buy a house and to fill it with all the stuff that is ours, to make our house our home
But then my head catches up with my heart and I know I cannot get married now because:
1. He's not ready, give him some time. lol
2. We both need our degrees first
3. We need stable jobs because...
4. Stuff outside the wedding is expensive (rings, honeymoon - want to go to Italy. haha)
5. WEDDINGS ARE HELLA EXPENSIVE ( I am in debt, still living with my parents. Need to be financially independent first)
I just have wait. And waiting is fine, I have the rest of my life to be married. lol
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2 comments:
Sometimes I wonder what I'm doing. Getting married at a young age, getting married before graduating college, getting married without having a 'real' job yet...
But then I realize I'm already taking care of myself. I have my own insurance, I have a job that pays the bills, and allows me to travel a couple time a year, and I have someone I love who encourages me to go to class, supports me, and loves me.
Marriage is a huge decision... and there are too many questions involved. I think waiting is a good thing if the there are too many questions left unanswered or the answers are lacking.
Sorry to be one of the people in your life that is engaged... it still bugs the crap out of me that so many of my friends are married or engaged even if I'm one of them, lol.
Don't ever apologize for getting married! I am so excited for you! :-) Take it as a compliment cause I look at what you have and are going through with all the planning and am jealous... I'm starting to get the itch and I don't know how to handle it. lol
But I am very happy for you! :-D I can't wait for the reception!
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